A girl on The Biggest Loser goes from being really over weight to being super thin and the general public is in shock. So now she is happy for being thin, and the public is condemning her for her thinness. How can she win there?
When I was 21 I decided to figure out if there was something wrong with me and find out why I could not gain weight. I went to several doctors. I had them run test for worms. I had to test my own poop for them. How gross is that? I had to take that nasty barium so they could X-ray my insides. I thought at first I had a hyperthyroid. But that was not the case and I am happy for that negative outcome. As if military life isn’t stressful enough. The doctors finally came to the conclusion that I have an extremely high metabolism. So now finally having answers that made sense, I could hold my head up high.
I thought the turning point for me to gain weight would be when I got pregnant. Once again I was proven wrong. I assumed that I would gain so much weight and then after giving birth I would keep the weight on. Most women seem to have a problem shedding the baby weight and I thought one of those women would be me. Not so much. I had trouble gaining weight while I was pregnant. I ate, just for breakfast alone, four waffles, two bowls of oatmeal, and four scrambled eggs. I was eating, but just not gaining the necessary weight. I did not look like I was pregnant till I was about 6-7 months. You know I find it funny, I did not get stretch marks till I after I gave birth; I lost the weight too fast. Once again my hopes and dreams for having a little weight gain were smashed.
To this day I still weigh the same as I did in high school. I’m 31 years old and still fit into my prom dress. I still struggle with the way people react to me being skinny. I do eat and I do eat a lot. I do not like being called anorexic, because I am not. You know that saying, “The grass is not always greener on the other side.” It holds true in the way people view their bodies. People are not typically satisfied with what they have or how they look. I’m fighting to gain even an ounce, while the next female is fighting to lose one.
